I didn't realize a castrated steer defecation was different from an un-castrated steer...

BTW the "truth" is always infallible, it's always black and white, truth is not an opinion or what you might think or perceive, truth is pretty much absolute. So do try to separate opinions from truth, if you can't then yes you are disillusioned, oh yeah and acknowledge that other people might have had a different perspective/understanding on the situation than you did, this something known as a "misunderstanding" which can only be resolved by acknowledging it.